Thinkin Pwo has seen it's last of me

So its summer, and I have been a lot less busy, which is a relief not having to work at Marshall's all summer long. And for some reason, I just seem to be a lot less interested with pokemon in general. for a long time I wanted to get a 3ds just for the purpose of pokemon game improvement, but it didn't happen, and Gen 5 just really has me at a loss. Unfortunately, this whole drama interferes with my liking for pwo in the long run. Besides my recent disinterest in pokemon, I feel like I overworked myself in Pwo trying to be the best person I can possibly make of myself and helping the community, but reality is its not going to happen like a lot of other things Id like out of life. Quite frankly I find myself dissapointed in myself for my change of character, and I have alot of regrets that link to the game in general. I find myself being a let down failure who tried but ended up failing.

So Im not really sure what im gonna do about my actions involving Pwo. I mean, Im already staff on another MMO and I have been giving my all for the other project I mentioned in the shout box and in another topic. I'm glad that I have the opportunity to be of help to these few projects, and it makes me realize that if my mapping work was praised on a way bigger community than pwo (referencing to Pokecommunity, much larger group of people) than I must not be good enough to be of service in general. I mean, I just wanted to quest/map in many tries for pwo, but I've got what I wanted all along for something different. The training, battling, trading concept has become a disinterest which is why I have ignored my account in these past few weeks.

Im gonna disclose this by saying my decision for being an active member of pwo is slim to none right now. Idont think anything is going to change my mind about playing that game. Besides pwo I sill have Pokemon Jade and Nox Online, not to mention Minecraft, when Im not mapping, Im working on m new metropolis on Minecraft (Im here everyday, Ip is on global7i.com for those interested) Not exactly leaving this community so don't think for a second Im quitting the Dramander community!